March 2011
Army of Me
Björk
Bjork- Army of Me
I finally felt it....
I finally felt happy. It’s 2:22 in the morning and I can’t stop smiling. I’m eating peanutbutter crackers and talking to someone important. While this alone brings me great joy, not even this simplicity can give me the elated feeling I have right now.
Today was just amazing from stat to finish. School actually captured my full attention because my History professor was extra amazingly funny today, and in French we played “Never Have I Ever”. It was awesome to see the things people have done while still trying to be school appropriate.
Then I went to a movie I had somewhat low hopes for. Me and a friend went to see Suckerpunch. It is a boy’s movie hands down, but the girls in it were pretty kick ass. The soundtrack was SUPERB in my opinion at least.
From there three more friends joined in the fun. We picked up snacks and headed back to my house to play euchre till two in the morning. This is normal, except we were all in such a good mood we couldn’t stop laughing. Some clothes came off, drinks and food were spilled, people were defeated in cards and ping-pong (and we’ve decided it should be called ‘ping-room’ by the way we play it…..) but still an amazing time.
I feel this day has been a long time coming. Recently my dad left. Just picked up and moved out. I have to go have dinner with him and the side of my family I sort of kind of hate. It’s going to be awkward and I’m not looking forward to it. I expected this to make me feel sad or mad but I don’t. I honestly don’t. I actually think it made things better. My mom seems happier and more relaxed and I think I am too.
I am proud to report that things are more than ok they’re close to being great. Close, not yet but getting there. I just need a job and a few people to make decisions that could make me very happy. Plus on the upside I’m getting a new phone since my current one is a semi-piece of shit phone that shuts off when someone calls.
So my life isn’t quite colapsing. This is a good thing.
I forgot to tell you that i had a dream you and i went to Happy's Pizza together. I do not know why.
it’s because you’re a pot head that’s why. :P JK
“Lose it? I didn’t lose it. It’s not like, “Whoops! Where’d my job go?” I QUIT. Someone pass me the asparagus.”
—Lester Burnham (via nickibinds)
“I guess I could be pretty pissed off about what happened to me, but it’s hard to stay mad, when there’s so much beauty in the world. Sometimes I feel like I’m seeing it all at once, and it’s too much. My heart fills up like a balloon that’s about to burst. And then I remember to relax, and stop trying to hold on to it, and then it flows through me like rain and I can’t feel anything but gratitude for every single moment of my stupid little life. You have no idea what I am talking about, I’m sure. But don’t worry. You will someday.”
—American Beauty (via mewitslizzy)
